The Journey to Freedom - The Healing Way

This is an example of how I use to paint twenty years ago. It is acrylic on paper, done by copying a photograph - which I took - and painted with a brush with only a few hairs. It was a painstaking way of working. It was about replicating, which, mentally after you've sussed out how to do that, becomes fairly boring.

Being an artist is a journey that mirrors your life. None of us can stay in the same groove forever - it would be unnatural and yet I have lost count of the number of times people have pulled me up on why I no longer paint cottage scenes, why I no longer paint like this.

Having painted cottages in spring, summer, autumn, winter, with blue, grey, or cloudy sky, in pastels, oils or acrylics, I can safely say... 'I have done that thing!'😂

So life unfolds as it does and you amble along with it, not knowing the destination.

For me, now, I realise that my journey was all about awakening. Hindsight is such an amazing thing.

You don't know what you don't know. You don't miss what you don't know and you don't know what you miss. It's so entangling, but I remember that I didn't want to die stupid. I wanted to be fully aware of all that crossed my path and then to fully understand it.

One thing that's great with art, is that it slows everything down. Life has to stop for a moment and it gives you time to digest what is unfolding around you.

There was never a decision to come away from representational art in favour of energy art - it just happened. Turns out it was always meant to happen. It was what I'd come on earth to do. It was laid down.

I'm a spiritual teacher - energy art was the way I learned how to teach. It is a spirit lead approach where all the information comes from spirit and is laid down in form - as a painting. The way of art allows you to hear spirit clearly and to follow guidance.

Many people glancing at the art will call it abstract, but it is not. I guess they are just putting it into a category that they are aware of, and they have no awareness of energy art or the term. It confuses them, and they can't see or feel it. It requires HEART to feel it and this is innate to human beings although many shun it.

To be an energy artist has been a solitary road for a very long time and now what keeps me sane is a pod of people around me that get it, and to know that being in service to spirit is the main reason for being on earth.

I live more above than below, completely at home with my animals that have passed, my brother and my friend Mick, the Archangels and Mahatma Gandhi.

What is in my awareness now that was not when I was painting the Island scenes, is the existence of spirit and an eternal life where I have lived before and will continue to do so, even after this body.

How do I know? How many people have said 'That's your belief,' as if it is something outside of my arena of knowledge as a whimsical belief that I could change my mind on once I was no longer brain washed.

The reason I know is because the silence of art has enabled me to hear that which was always there, and the images of art have helped show me what is playing out in my life.

Over the coming weeks I will post some examples of what bought me to know. What I will say for now is -

'That the ultimate healing starts from within and enables us to hear because we are light enough to do so.
The ultimate journey on this planet is to be as a person that can fully live through the heart.
When we can hear and fully live through the heart, something shifts within us.
The whole world stays the same, but we are different within it.
In time, with enough people being different within the world, the energy on it will change and life on earth will be an entirely different experience.

The Power of Art

I believe that art has the power to heal because when we are immersed in it - with all our passion - our hearts open wide and we access our innate creation ability. We access our genius and this gives us tremendous joy and fulfilment. A sense of accomplishment and worth. We are nourished by the energy that we pour out of ourselves as well as the energy that fills us up. It is a win win situation that results in our own healing as well as the healing of others, purely by viewing the art.

I have been lucky because I have had the opportunity to share with many young people the journey of healing through art. Such a simple process of expressing yourself with colour - beyond the mind and form. Formless art. Inspiration. A journey that - without pressure - with complete freedom, allows forms to arrive
on their own. A process that gives the mind a complete rest.

Spontaneous free expression captivates a students imagination effortlessly, with healing being a natural and steady bi-product of the enjoyment.

Here are some stunning creations by one of my students who came to me because she had zero confidence. She is at one of the special schools on the Island, but this was not an issue for her.

Somehow something had triggered a complete inability to communicate without jittering nervously She cowered and kept her eyes down, blocking everyone out because she found interaction too difficult and stressful.

Creativity is an amazing process because the act of it causes us to open up. Conversation starts to flow and so healing is on many levels.

What I realised happens to many people is what I observed in myself. As a young child this happened to me. I was fully aware of the dynamic and studied it.

When we are sensitive we pick up on the thoughts of others and fall into behaving exactly as they perceive us. It is not intentional, enjoyable or desired and is very hard to break free from and snap out of. It becomes an ingrained habit.

It feels like you are somehow hooked into a dynamic that over powers you - that is more powerful, and it took me years of fighting it to realise how to escape. Now I teach others the techniques that I learned.

A sensitive person has their own personality that they are aware of as well as all the other personalities of everyone else that they interact with or that are within their vicinity. They read and process all of this information simultaneously and it can be very draining and exhausting.

No help is sought or believed to be required because it is assumed that we are all the same - swamped with a heavy mat of feeling information that is drowning us with its weight.

Finally there is now more information 'out there' that is showing how All Is Energy, and All can be Felt. All is Tangible. PHEW!

So this mirroring of others that think that we are stupid, weak, feeble, incapable or LESS somehow is something that overrides our natural self because we are swamped by it and have a difficulty in detangling all the incoming feelings to sort out what is our own. And there just ISN'T Time. Life is too hurried and rushed and we receive no help, and we can't work out what is wrong with us.

Art gives us breathing space. Time to be intrinsically ourselves. As sensitive people we can learn to hear and know ourselves louder than all the other surrounding melee.

We do not have to humour others because their
thoughts of us are demeaning - however shouty they are.

With this particular student, regular discussions of energy dynamics were crucial to her healing, as well as conversation and an environment where every drop of energy was positive and encouraging.

Even momentary dips in my energy would bring a question...
'Do you like me?'
 or - 'I'm sorry.' as if she was responsible for my energy as she was being affected by it.

It took me right back to when I was a child. She helped me remember and to heal these
deepest darkest corners of myself and to bring them into the light.

After two years this student is now the chattiest, cheekiest member of the class and radiates joy, compassion and love.

I Am Enough.

Throughout life I've been in constant search of a self that seems ever changing. Searching for everything and yet looking for nothing. Life racing by in the blink of an eye.

I am not the person that I was five years ago, and feel the being that existed in me ten years before, was someone living a parallel life - a person that I could have been if I'd stayed on that path.

It was as a meandering road that we take when lost on our way - to where?

That was my questioning as a child.

'What is the purpose for all this?'
'Why am I here?'
'Where am I going?'

Everything became convoluted, too much, too noisy and I raced about being a people pleaser, never stopping for a minute to consider myself or what Nicola would like.

It was as if I wasn't aware that I was allowed to think of myself - for that would be selfish.

Life had to take me to a place where I was bought to my knees, where I came to realise that we can serve on this planet, but that this is not the same as giving up on ourselves.

We are here as energy contained within flesh and bone, and our vibration is the most important thing that we can take care of, that we are responsible for.

If our emissions are hectic, fragmented, sullied, sad, disjointed, flat, spikey or shardy, then everything around us is jagged because it is being affected by our presence.

When we are smooth and floaty, happy, up beat, gracious, joyful - when we are able to feel and be love - everything about us changes.

When water is pure and surrounded by music, laughter and love, it develops beautiful, delicate snowflake crystal shapes. This shows us just how important our emotion - energy in motion - is.

Firstly it is vital for our health and self healing. Filling ourselves up with love and positive self talk where we can see beauty in ourselves, where we accept ourselves exactly as we are.

Once everything is stripped away, our essence is rainbow coloured light.  To return to this state is all that is required, for being this way it shows others how to be the same.

No words or demonstrations are needed. Just a heart that emits its soul song.

You are enough.

There is no need to seek love or approval from others. All is within ourselves. Happiness is a choice.

I remember when I first began to disengage with society en masse, and to spend more time in nature, amongst trees or listening to waves.

Healing took quite a long time - several years, until I was finally able to feel myself. My rhythm, my peace, my essence.

In the silence I slowly grew to know who I am, where I'm going and why I'm here and although others are involved in my life - and I love it when they are, for I can play with them a while, but they cannot detract from my truest nature -  they can only enrich it.

The soul song journey requires a level of simplicity within ourselves where we can find joy and fulfilment in our lives as they are - not seeking, not wishing.

The joy of a sparkling rain drop, or the magical nature of a snowflake.

Once you can find joy around you, it is possible to build on it, with the positive energy radiating from you, attracting more of the same until suddenly it seems that the whole world is smiling with you.

Be All That You Can Be

This year promises to be a very important year regarding knowledge exchange, stargates opening, and changing energies.

There is so much now on the web regarding -

Ascension.
Enlightenment.
2012.
Manifesting.
Christ Consciousness.
Divine Cosmos.
Divine Source.
Spiritual tests.
Photon Belt.
Raising consciousness levels to 5th dimensional understanding.

But what does it all mean?



Put simply, all the people on the planet are going through a gradual shift in their consciousness. Their ability to perceive things is shifting.

It's similar to when mankind believed the earth to be flat, but then it was discovered that it had been round the whole time. At this time, until it was proven that the earth was round, people that believed it was were seen as nutters and 'believers.'

This shift in consciousness is of the same gravity, but this time the 'Shift' is relating to us being 5th dimensional.


5th dimensional means that we accept that we exist above and below the veil.
We can communicate as if the death and alive states were on the same bandwidth.
We are able to receive guidance from family members, friends, angels and guides that are on the Other Side.
We see death differently and no longer are afraid of it or overly mourn another's passing.

When we completely know that we are spirit having a human experience - for the learning of it.

When we realise that the only way is LOVE.

That all our energy and thoughts are laid down - to pollute or heal the earth.

That we are here to heal the planet and it's people - now to be greedy and get ahead of others.

For me it is a birthright -a knowing so deep inside - memories returning, and learning to

SHINE  YOUR  LIGHT.